[ i give thee back the life i owe ]

Today is a very good day. I just passed my driver’s test! Praise God! I was starting to get anxious. It was so obviously all God too.. I learned in under a month and I’m really hit or miss with paralell parking, although Kasey says I do it like a rockstar. I failed the first time I took it because I was supposed to be using my mom’s car and found out I couldn’t at the very last minute. So I had to take it in Ashley’s boat CRV, which she has never allowed me to paralell park. I’m too short to see where the curb is, I can barely see over the dashboard and I had no judgement whatsoever of where the end of the vehicle was. I didn’t hit anything, but I didn’t make it in properly. This time I barely made it in the space and we were late getting there, but he passed me! I was so thankful. The Lord even held off the rain til we were driving home. They gave me a temporary license.. something about protecting people from identity theft… and said my real one would come in the mail within the next 15 days. I leave for Romania in 12, so I’m just going to pray really hard that it comes before I leave.

The Lord has really placed it on my heart to get in touch with an old friend. In my addiction, I tried to point him to Christ and share the gospel with him, but I was living in such great sin that I had compromised my witness. Now that I’m a little better at practicing what I preach, I feel like I really need to contact him. I can’t explain it. It’s weighing on my heart to do this before I leave. I finally got his contact information today, I’ve been trying to find it for weeks. I need to spend some more time in prayer about it before I’ll be comfortable actually trying to contact him. He was such a dear friend… and even though I don’t have ANY desire for that lifestyle and find it utterly repulsive, I’m still anxious about putting myself anywhere near it. But why did the Lord bring me through all of that ugliness if not to be able to minister to someone else in the same mess with the same need of the Savior?

“For though I am free from all, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win more of them. To the Jews I became as a Jew, in order to win Jews. To those under the law I became as one under the law (though not being myself under the law) that I might win those under the law. To those outside the law I became as one outside the law (not being outside the law of God but under the law of Christ) that I might win those outside the law. To the weak I became weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all people, that by all means I might save some. I do it all for the sake of the gospel, that I may share with them in its blessings.” – 1 Corinthians 9:19-23