[ i cannot go alone, cause i know i’m nothing on my own ]

Well.. I’m thankful that all the madness and tense transitioning is over, I have to confess I’m sorry I didn’t do it all with a servant’s heart and more joy for my sister. There’s no doubt about how happy I am for Ashley and Daniel and how much I love them both, I guess I just wish my love was a little less selfish and a little more Christ-like. I could say the same thing for everyone else in my life too, I guess. I think that’s another one of those things I’ll spend the rest of my life striving to do better. Isn’t that the goal and purpose of the Christian life?

“Having purified your souls by your obedience to the truth for a sincere brotherly love, love one another earnestly from a pure heart, since you have been born again, not of perishable seed but of imperishable, through the living and abiding word of God; for ‘All flesh is like grass and all its glory like the flower of grass. The grass withers, and the flower falls, but the word of the Lord remains forever.’ And this word is the good news that was preached to you.”
– 1 Peter 1:22-24

There’s only six days and a couple thousand miles standing between me and the people I love in Romania. If only there were a way for me to express my gratitude to my God and all the people who have so graciously supported me in so many ways. The Lord has used each of you in such a powerful way in my life.. both in financially suporting me through three short term projects in the last year and also all the emotional and prayer support I’ve received from my brothers and sisters in Christ during the most difficult year of my life. God has done so many amazing things this year in changing my heart and my desires, preparing me for the mission field, changing relationships. None of it has been easy, but if God gets the glory, then it’s all worth it. Sunday is going to be very hard for me.

Oh Lord, give me strength to run the race You’ve set before me. Teach me to rely on You alone.

“Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed.” – Hebrews 12:12-13