I am SO blessed by my time with the Lord this morning.
“He is the source of your life in Christ Jesus, whom God made our wisdom and righteousness and sanctification and redemption. Therefore it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.” – 1 Cor 1:30-31
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” – 2 Cor 5:17
“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” – Gal 2:20
I feel like this Pascal quote really sums it all up nicely.
“Not only do we only know God through Jesus Christ, but we only know ourselves through Jesus Christ; we only know life and death through Jesus Christ. Apart from Jesus Christ we cannot know the meaning of our life or of our death, of God, or of ourselves.” – Blaise Pascal.
Lately, I have been struggling with selfishness and pride. I expect everyone and everything to go the way I want them to and when they don’t, I retreat into this dark, hateful, anti-social mood. And instead of diagnosing the sin, taking myself off the throne of my heart and mind, and putting God back where He belongs– I’ve just been drowning in introspection and asking myself the same questions over and over again. “What’s wrong with me? Why am I behaving this way? This isn’t like me! Who is this person?! Why can’t I be ME again?! Help me to be myself, Lord!”
The truth is I don’t want to be me. I’ve had enough of “me” to last myself a lifetime. And the last thing I want is for God to make me more like myself.
The truth is I am not my own. I was bought with a price. My ransomed life belongs to Jesus and He is in the business of making me like Him. And I need Him to do that. I’m a sinner, so I shouldn’t be surprised when I act like one. But I’m also a new creation in Christ and His Spirit lives within me. He’s the one I want to run to when I see my sin and the only identity I want to claim is the one He has given me freely by faith in Him. I am thankful beyond words for what He has done to give me this new life in Him.
Soundtrack: Sovereign Grace Music – “Jesus Lives”