Weigh-in Wednesday: Week 21

You know what they say about the best laid plans…

Yeah, they say that for a reason.

But before I get into the how’s and why’s of my going completely off the rails this week, let’s talk for a minute about what a brilliant/terrible idea it is to commit to blogging about your weight loss, sharing your progress on the internet, and encouraging your friends to read about it. It’s brilliant because it’s actually incredibly motivating – who wants to post how much weight they gained after Thanksgiving? And it’s terrible because you’re committing to broadcasting your failures and you actually have to post how much weight you gained after Thanksgiving.

But my WW leader said something that was so, so helpful to me as I was processing all of this today.

“Vulnerability is strength beyond measure. Until we can be honest about what’s really going on, we can’t change anything. We can’t build on lies.” 

And you know what? She’s so right.

I had such a great attack plan this past week. I was feeling so confident and so strong walking into Thanksgiving. And the day itself went mostly fine. I went slightly over my daily allotment of points, but nothing crazy.

And then came the day after. And the day after. And the day after.

One little compromise on Thanksgiving led to another. And the next thing I knew, I was “treating myself” with aaaaaaalllll the treats. And then came the shame spiral. (I know I mention that kind of flippantly on here, but it’s a very real thing for me. It’s ugly and it’s hard and it’s really, really difficult for me to break.)

So. Here’s what I’ve learned: for this particular season of life, I can’t have special treats. I just can’t. And believe me, I realize how much that sucks with Christmas coming. But here’s the thing: I know I don’t actually want those special treats if I’m in the habit of not having them. Sure, there’s that initial detox– but once that’s over, you won’t find me bingeing late at night on so many pieces of buttered toast and gouda and chips with artichoke jalapeno dip. (Ahem. I said I was going to be honest and vulnerable.)

This is my life. This is my journey. And I’m going to do whatever it takes to get there.

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The Numbers: Up. And I’ve said all I’m going to say about that.

Non-Scale Victories: I bought the cutest coat on Black Friday. It reminds me of Penelope – even though it’s not quite as cute as hers. It is, however, two sizes smaller than the coat I bought on clearance at the end of last season. How’s that for an NSV?

Last Week’s Goals: Don’t go crazy with Thanksgiving.✓ Track absolutely everything. Stay on plan. (1/3)

This Week’s Goal: Work out three times this week.

This Month’s Goal: Eight glasses of water every day. (4/7)

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