Weigh-in Wednesday: Week 29

I have a confession to make. I almost gave up on Weight Watchers this week. Gasp! What?! I know, I know.

I just got so frustrated with the new SmartPoints program and my own limitations. I feel like I’ve been trying and failing to get it together for two. months. I feel like I’ve been fighting with the same stupid three pounds I gained over the holidays for two. months. And I have. There’s been precious little in the way of actual measurable progress in the last few months with all the setbacks and celebrations and trying to get back to where I was before the holidays.

I was so close to completely throwing WW out the window and starting over with something that made more sense to me. Like the Paleo diet or Whole30 or even the stupid 21 Day Fix. Anything that would help me hit the reset button.

You know what stopped me? The idea that I would have to give up on my meeting, my totally amazing leader, and even the Connect feature on the new app. If I left Weight Watchers – I’d be leaving the support system which has proven absolutely crucial to my success thus far. (I’ve gone on lots of diet and exercise regimes before. And I’ve never lost this much weight. Certainly not in a healthy way.) Moreover, I’d be sacrificing my access to a group of women who have already lost the amount of weight I have to lose. I’ve never known anyone who’s lost 90 lbs naturally. How foolish I would be to give up on all of that?

So, true to the goal I set last week, I decided to give SmartPoints a real chance. If I still felt the same after rigourously following the program this week, I would start figuring out an alternative solution.

I’m glad I did. Because I’ve decided that while SmartPoints does not allow the same flexibility as PointsPlus or the Paleo diet — it is actually doable. It’s also a good program. It’s forcing me to do more problem solving and make wiser choices with how I use my points. Because, in this program, not all points are created equal. And while I still have the freedom to eat what I want to within those parameters- it does cost me a lot more dearly when I make less healthy choices.

In some ways, there’s actually more flexibility. My aforementioned amazing WW leader explained to me that in this program, the weekly flex points are tailored to the individual, based on their age, gender, height, weight, and goals. And the program was designed so that each individual can actually use all of their weekly flex points and still expect to lose weight! (Not so with the old program.) Now, your progress may be slower if you’re doing that, but one can still expect progress to be made. But, as I said before, it seems like this new program puts a lot more emphasis on how you’re using your points and the weekly flex points are no exception. Obviously, if you’re spending those weekly flex points on cake and ice cream – that may affect your weight loss. But we all know that’s true anyway, right? Right. But the whole concept of the weekly flex points is  F R E E D O M. Because we all know that rigorous deprivation without any kind of grace is not a sustainable way to live. Better to use my flex points on something I really want and trust the program will continue to work rather than force myself to live without and eventually end up throwing baby and bath water totally out the window.

I believe this is what they call an “aha moment” in the WW world.

I learned a lot this week. I’m sticking with WW. And I feel really good about that.

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The Numbers: Down! Admittedly, not down as much as I would have liked to see. Especially given how hard I worked at the gym this week. I’m still 0.2 lbs shy of getting back to where I was before the holidays. (Grrrr!!!!! REALLY?!) But I really am thankful for the loss. Honestly, the idea of having to post another WIW with a gain was giving me pretty severe anxiety. Fear of man is a great motivator, I guess.

Non-Scale Victories: Seriously, so many. I’ve gone to the gym more times than I can count this week. I’ve been doing interval training on the treadmill and have worked myself up to running for 2 minutes and walking for 4. I haven’t done that since I was a single girl at Bethlehem living in the Ravenbrook house. I stayed on plan and rigorously tracked everything. I’ve been going through a lot of emotional stuff lately and rather than eating those emotions, I’ve been speaking truth to myself– that binge eating will not actually make me feel better. In fact, it will probably make me feel worse. (A few times I went to the gym to try to work out some of those emotions. And that’s how I wound up running again.) My water intake has increased exponentially and I just feel better . I also did a lot of dining out this week and made wise choices and stayed within my points. Even at two of my favorite places to go wildly off plan. AND ALL OF THIS IS GRACE. Because, as we all know by now, none of this is even remotely default for me. I asked the Lord to help me with this, believing that my Father does actually care about the small things in life with no real eternal significance. He does. And He has been faithful. And I am so thankful for that.

This Week’s Goal: Continue tracking accurately, trusting that it’s better for me to have to use some of my weekly flex points if I go over my daily point target and have more information, rather than fudging the numbers and then scratching my head next week if the scale doesn’t do what I expect.

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